22 thing’s I’ve learned in 22 years

The 2nd of June has arrived. Last year I put up a post that told you what I learned in my 21 years of life. Here I am again with a whole new post of things I’ve learned in this past year. 

#1 I’ve learned to be more patient. It’s totally worth it. Believe me.

#2 I’ve learned That just because you didn’t have a great day doesn’t mean it has to end badly

#3 Nice girls finish first.

#4 Don’t compare yourself to someone else. You are a different person with a different life.

#5 Learn to ask for help. It’s been a struggle for me ever since I could remember but I’ve managed to do it

#6 Don’t ever be someone’s second choice. You are worth way more.

#7 I’ve learned that people come into your life for a certain reason. 

#8 Be kind no matter what the circumstance is.

#9 You are not the opinion of somebody who doesn’t know you.

#10 It’s better to regret something you did or said than regret not doing it.

#11 Be grateful for the things that make you different, don’t cover them up.

#12 Don’t over do the coffee!

#13 My biggest goal is to have happiness. To be overall happy with my life.

#14 I’ve learned that not everyone is meant to stay in your life.

#15 It’s okay to make mistakes lots of them just as long as you learn from them.

#16 When in doubt dance it out

#17. Regardless of how much you want someone in your life if it’s only you that’s wanting it do yourself a favor and let them go.

# 18 EVERYTHING happens for a reason.

#19 Treat yourself the way you want people to treat you.

#20 Don’t take the people you love for granted

#21 Mum is ALWAYS going to be right 

And #22 I still have so much to learn


Happy June

The first day of the month is always exciting and refreshing. It always seems to give me a different feeling each time. And I always love it. 

This month it’s as twice as exciting because I’m celebrating so many accomplishments. First off my birthday is tomorrow but I’m also celebrating the fact I will be going to my dream college this fall. I’ll be leaving an old path to start a new one. 

For the past 3 yrs I was so scared and nervous about the fact that it may not happen. That I may not be get to go to my first choice school. But I did it I got in. And I’m having all these mixed emotions. But the one emotion I’m feeling is relieved because I over came all this stress and so many anxiety attacks its unbelievable that I’m at a finish line ready to begin a new race. 

A few months who I started a new job not knowing what it had in store for me. Not knowing how well I was going to do. That I look back now and think I’ve managed to  overcome my fears from last year.

This month holds so much of my future it actually excites me a little too much. I want to say happy birth-month too all of you who have a special day coming up. And I hope with each and every year it only gets better. Have a great month y’all.

Yours always,


The end of a decade but the start of an age

As I’m sitting here the week before finals I’m walking around campus taking it all in. Glancing around the areas I made some memories  at and the classrooms I made some long lasting pals.

Trying to hold onto every moment I’m getting. To not cry because I’m leaving people I want to hold onto. Who knew it was all gonna be so bittersweet? Because I sure as hell didn’t.

I look back 3 yrs ago when this chick walked into the campus that she thought she was gonna hate. I mean I don’t love it but I like it….well now I do. I remember that I thought I could walk in my black heeled boots all day HAHA that sure bit me in the butt.

But honestly I’ve learned so much from this school and the people that it has thrown at me.Crazy to even believe I’m leaving to extend to my education haha. I’ve learned to go for whatever it is you want. To throw yourself at every opportunity because once you miss your chance it will no longer be there. I’ve learned how to make myself more interesting on and off paper. I’ve learned that not everyone is going to like you and that’s okay.

I’ve learned that I can actually work well with others. I’ve also learned I’m a great leader more than a follower even though at times I just want to sit back. I’ve learned that I may never achieve the dream of NOT Being a Last minute Lucy. Some habits are just permanent I guess.

I want to thank the school the people I met there for making me a better version of myself. When I look back to who I used to be all I can say is whoa. Some traits stayed which is good because I wanted most of them too. The others I really didn’t want I’ve managed to make them more efficient and effective in my life. 

Writing this is making  all of this way more bittersweet. Like it’s happening this is actually a real thing. For those of you who know me, know I’ve waited 3 yrs for this moment to arrive. And now that’s it here, actually happening I find myself holding onto everything knowing that when my last day comes I’m not gonna want to leave and let go. There’s not much to say or do but thank you to all of you who have supported and encourage me to keep going. That means so much to more than you all will ever know. Till than.

Yours always,


You on my mind

1 a.m. and I just came home from being with someone else that isn’t you. The shame it taunts over me like a scent I can’t get rid of. 

EVERY time I said his name yours almost came out EVERY single time. When I looked up at him or looked into his eyes all I could see were his. I watch his hands go on me thinking why aren’t they yours.

I want you so bad. But knowing if I am on your mind like the way your on mines it keeps me up. Your voice haunts me replaying all the moments we’ve had together. You looking at me, me looking at me. 

I close my eyes wishing that when they open it would be you but every time I’m wrong. Hoping that when I graze my fingers through his hair that it would be yours. I crave your affection and attention. Till next time.
Yours always,


L.A to the Bay

Dear San Francisco, 

When I think about the places that make me happy and feel like home your the second half to my first thought. I never thought I could be so in love with a city. Practically for my entire life you are a consist place I always go back to.

Every time I go back to you I get the same emotions and it’s a mixture between happiness and excitement. Seeing that the place I’ve visted since I was a little girl and having all those memories. It’s an absolute pleasure and brings me so much life. It’s crazy to know a place so well and Not even grow up in it. 

You carry such an important aspect in my life. Friends and family, I mean I don’t care for some family there but for the most part you carry my godparents, cousins, and nephews. 

You know what’s so funny is that I’m closer to the family I have over there and have such an important bond with them more than the family I have over here that lives around me. I feel like they actually care for me and I can let my guard down with them. That means so much. My love for them is so strong and wonderful I’m proud to have a family like that. That’s why the last name Olague is special because it’s a bond and mixture like no other.

San fran you Will always be somewhere I can call home and feel like I am. Don’t know if it’s because you have my family or because I’ve made friendships that have lasted. Or because you carry such beauty all around you. 

I go back every time never wanting to leave but knowing that I have to. How lucky am I to have known you pretty much my entire life? I’d say I’ve lucked out. You are such a gem to be take in.  I always have the most amazing, beautiful, unexpected journey when I go back to you that’s  makes you so enticing. That what makes me come back. You are my home away from home and you have my gratitude for that.

From the girl who was raised from L.a. to The Bay.

Yours always,


You are

Lately there has been so many harsh and cruel things going on around the world. Things that we don’t need to have. Some of those things have affected us mentally and personally. Regardless of what’s being done and said that’s negatively. There are just a few choice of words you might need to hear to change that.

So I’m gonna start by telling you all the things you are not.

* you are not the opinion of somebody who doesn’t know you.

*you are not damaged goods just because you’ve made mistakes before.

Now This is what you are

*You are special

*You are amazing

*You are beautiful

*You are your allowed to make mistakes as long as you fix them the next time

They knew

She knew. Nothing was said but you could feel it. The way they were towards each other. The emotions weren’t the ones she would normally feel. She thought she was strong enough to finally let him go and go on with her life. Truth is she hurt so badly she kept in the tears felt the sharp pain in her chest and wanted more. She wasn’t sad though all these emotions were all coming from her feeling so pissed off and all that anger. From him not doing anything and just left her hanging.

    He knew. He saw what was happening, never got the nerve to say what he kept inside. He let her slip away even though she needed the kind of love he gave. He wanted her as well yet he still let things happen the way they did. He didn’t know it took everything in her to not go back to him. She didn’t look at him the way she used to. Effort was gone and so was she. 

    And in the end they both lost.

    Yours always,