Farewells, goodbyes, and everything in between

Where do I even begin? I went to a school in a city I never really knew about. Not knowing 3 yrs later That I would actually grow an attachment to it and the people it had to offer.

I went to a school that I didn’t really want to go to. 3 years later and I’m tearing up and feeling heartache as I say my goodbyes. Knowing deep down I’m going to keep in touch with these people because this isn’t high school. We’re old enough to realize we went through so much crap to not be good friends.  

I didn’t know anything about riverside until a year into school. I was getting tired of Strbx so I yelped coffee places around the area. That’s when I found a coffee shop that looked like I would love. I was right I did love it, loved it so much I became a regular. It became a huge part of my day. 

2 years later and so much has changed since then. I got to know the people who made it feel so welcoming, the baristas there. It’s one thing to make it pleasant to be at but having about your entire brew crew make it feel comfortable that says a lot about all of y’all. 

I was such a stranger to riverside that having a place that made me feel relaxed it was comforting. 

Thank you to the classmates that became my friends. My lab partner that became my closest guy best friend. The people I would see every morning on my way to Molinos that became great company. The baristas at Molinos for being so inviting. To the friends I already had that became my closest confidant. 

Thank you to everyone who’s encouraged, supported, and been there for me when I was either at my Highest point of my lowest. All you didn’t have to be there but yet you chose to be there.

I can’t believe my time here is done. It’s been one hell of a adventure. I’m glad all you were there to be there with me. I can’t wait to see what all you have done in the future. I wish you the best in  all your future endeavors. Till than. This anteater has so much to get done before the fall.

Yours always,

                           Kaffienatedkia

22 thing’s I’ve learned in 22 years

The 2nd of June has arrived. Last year I put up a post that told you what I learned in my 21 years of life. Here I am again with a whole new post of things I’ve learned in this past year. 

#1 I’ve learned to be more patient. It’s totally worth it. Believe me.

#2 I’ve learned That just because you didn’t have a great day doesn’t mean it has to end badly

#3 Nice girls finish first.

#4 Don’t compare yourself to someone else. You are a different person with a different life.

#5 Learn to ask for help. It’s been a struggle for me ever since I could remember but I’ve managed to do it

#6 Don’t ever be someone’s second choice. You are worth way more.

#7 I’ve learned that people come into your life for a certain reason. 

#8 Be kind no matter what the circumstance is.

#9 You are not the opinion of somebody who doesn’t know you.

#10 It’s better to regret something you did or said than regret not doing it.

#11 Be grateful for the things that make you different, don’t cover them up.

#12 Don’t over do the coffee!

#13 My biggest goal is to have happiness. To be overall happy with my life.

#14 I’ve learned that not everyone is meant to stay in your life.

#15 It’s okay to make mistakes lots of them just as long as you learn from them.

#16 When in doubt dance it out

#17. Regardless of how much you want someone in your life if it’s only you that’s wanting it do yourself a favor and let them go.

# 18 EVERYTHING happens for a reason.

#19 Treat yourself the way you want people to treat you.

#20 Don’t take the people you love for granted

#21 Mum is ALWAYS going to be right 

And #22 I still have so much to learn

Happy June

The first day of the month is always exciting and refreshing. It always seems to give me a different feeling each time. And I always love it. 

This month it’s as twice as exciting because I’m celebrating so many accomplishments. First off my birthday is tomorrow but I’m also celebrating the fact I will be going to my dream college this fall. I’ll be leaving an old path to start a new one. 

For the past 3 yrs I was so scared and nervous about the fact that it may not happen. That I may not be get to go to my first choice school. But I did it I got in. And I’m having all these mixed emotions. But the one emotion I’m feeling is relieved because I over came all this stress and so many anxiety attacks its unbelievable that I’m at a finish line ready to begin a new race. 

A few months who I started a new job not knowing what it had in store for me. Not knowing how well I was going to do. That I look back now and think I’ve managed to  overcome my fears from last year.

This month holds so much of my future it actually excites me a little too much. I want to say happy birth-month too all of you who have a special day coming up. And I hope with each and every year it only gets better. Have a great month y’all.

Yours always,

                           Kaffienatedkia

The end of a decade but the start of an age

As I’m sitting here the week before finals I’m walking around campus taking it all in. Glancing around the areas I made some memories  at and the classrooms I made some long lasting pals.

Trying to hold onto every moment I’m getting. To not cry because I’m leaving people I want to hold onto. Who knew it was all gonna be so bittersweet? Because I sure as hell didn’t.

I look back 3 yrs ago when this chick walked into the campus that she thought she was gonna hate. I mean I don’t love it but I like it….well now I do. I remember that I thought I could walk in my black heeled boots all day HAHA that sure bit me in the butt.

But honestly I’ve learned so much from this school and the people that it has thrown at me.Crazy to even believe I’m leaving to extend to my education haha. I’ve learned to go for whatever it is you want. To throw yourself at every opportunity because once you miss your chance it will no longer be there. I’ve learned how to make myself more interesting on and off paper. I’ve learned that not everyone is going to like you and that’s okay.

I’ve learned that I can actually work well with others. I’ve also learned I’m a great leader more than a follower even though at times I just want to sit back. I’ve learned that I may never achieve the dream of NOT Being a Last minute Lucy. Some habits are just permanent I guess.

I want to thank the school the people I met there for making me a better version of myself. When I look back to who I used to be all I can say is whoa. Some traits stayed which is good because I wanted most of them too. The others I really didn’t want I’ve managed to make them more efficient and effective in my life. 

Writing this is making  all of this way more bittersweet. Like it’s happening this is actually a real thing. For those of you who know me, know I’ve waited 3 yrs for this moment to arrive. And now that’s it here, actually happening I find myself holding onto everything knowing that when my last day comes I’m not gonna want to leave and let go. There’s not much to say or do but thank you to all of you who have supported and encourage me to keep going. That means so much to more than you all will ever know. Till than.

Yours always,

                         Kaffienatedkia 

You on my mind

1 a.m. and I just came home from being with someone else that isn’t you. The shame it taunts over me like a scent I can’t get rid of. 


EVERY time I said his name yours almost came out EVERY single time. When I looked up at him or looked into his eyes all I could see were his. I watch his hands go on me thinking why aren’t they yours.

I want you so bad. But knowing if I am on your mind like the way your on mines it keeps me up. Your voice haunts me replaying all the moments we’ve had together. You looking at me, me looking at me. 

I close my eyes wishing that when they open it would be you but every time I’m wrong. Hoping that when I graze my fingers through his hair that it would be yours. I crave your affection and attention. Till next time.
Yours always,

                           Kaffienatedkia

Who I amĀ 

So as I grow with this blog there are always things changing about me. 

*99% of my body runs on coffee

*I watch Friends, How I met your mother and Gilmore girls religiously

*Traveling is my way of living

*I love Halloween but I LIVE FOR CHRISTMAS

*My favorite part of the day is when I wake up and when I go to sleep

*My favorite city in the world is Seattle

*I’m an aunt to three beautiful and crazy little kids

*I love going to the mountains I’m all about mother nature

*When I’m extremely tired I sometimes talk in my sleep

*I have gone to every concert tour Taylor Swift has had hardcore fan since I was 13

* I live my life by going after all my fears

* I’m not scared of dying it can be a beautiful thing.

* I love talking.

*the only way you can tell I like someone is when I look them in the eye a lot.

*I can’t stand when people can’t keep their word it’s breaking a promise

*Pasadena will always have my heart

*I have uncontrollable road rage. It’s pretty gruesome

* My favorite dessert will always be Tiramisu